January 2010

I’m sick. I’ve been sick for a long time. Sick of our actions as “Christians” if that’s how i feel…imagine the world.

I personally don’t like when people categorize them self’s into “religions” I hate when people categorize them self’s into denominations. I call it religious/denominational barriers, yes barriers.

Barriers are put into place to…STOP you..

You may be asking why I think this…here we go…
James 1:26 [NLT]
If anyone considers himself religious and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceives himself and his religion is worthles

We are to be examples of a loving God right? We are supposed to be Brothers and sisters in Christ, regardless of you’re background, church denomination or current life situation…right? Honestly are we? Most of us are not.

allot of the time we pick out friends biased on our “religion” or “denomination” we all hang out with CHRISTIAN or we all hand out with “CATHOLICS” or “SINNERS” how about this “Oh, your Christian?! Me to! What kind of church do you go to? Assembles of God…Oh………well I go to a Baptist………………
It’s stupid.

Its bad…but not as bad as the “church”
A Non-denominational church assembles of God church wont do a function with a Baptist or Catholic Church.


I think….
The word religion now a days is worthless…why? It has been watered down! Honestly we have ruined it with our actions and life’s. Every one and their mom are involved with a religion and out of every one in a “religion”…how many are in a RELATIONSHIP with Christ?! Not many.

I don’t care if you are AG, Baptist, Catholic, non dom ect…Jesus loves you. I love you.
I believe that God the creator of heaven and earth sent his only son to die on the cross to save us! I believe in spiritual gift, miracles and healing. I believe that God loves us so much that he has all given us a choice to follow him or not. I know when we die our body and possessions will stay here and we will go to heaven or hell. We all have a mission to complete. We are here to be ambassadors of Christ and to love one another as we would love our self.

If you are a follower of Christ. You are to be “Christ-like”



The last 3 months have been the most stressful and depressing in our life. We have also learned more in that time than we would have ever expected. We are being stretched and broken.

We have doubted allot of our recent decisions and actions. Understandably, We lost our income in November 09. Bills, loans, cars every thing is past due, first time in our life. I have gone to interview after interview with no positive results. I got to the point that I was willing to take anything.

So yes…Dead end…we have felt like we are at the end of the road and there was no where to turn…Did we make a wrong turn? Did we miss our turn off? No…We seen what WE wanted…we knew what WE wanted to do…WE knew where WE where going…what WE didn’t see was the “detour” sign.

God told us to come here… Yes
Once we got that we didn’t ask anything ells. We assumed that God was going to use us to “change life’s” we thought that our talent, skill, life stories and experience was why God called us. Now we are here at the lowest point that we have ever been. Yes we have had ALLOT that has happened in our 23 years of life and yes I do believe that God will line up people for us to minister to here but the MAIN reason…Reason number 1 was to bring life change to our life!

So what needed to change? Pride.
Yeah pride. When we got here I had interviews and job offers about 10. I turned them all down because I felt some where shady and honestly I thought that I was “better” than the other. I never noticed the pride until we moved. It’s hard not to get prideful when you are 21 with a wife that can stay at home and raise your kids, new cars, nice house…everything we needed…and now we have nothing.

The last 2 years we have devoted our self’s to ministry and even though we played a part in life change our spiritual life, marriage and family all suffered. Our pride got the best of us. We sit here now and look at how we always wanted “more” we wanted better cars, bigger house, better job, more pay and new everything. When I had my last “real” job, I was always stressed because God forbid, I might make under $35.00 an hour, $25.00 an hour or even get the point that I hit the lowest possible of $16.00 an hour. To me, the world would have been over.

Right now I am praying that God will provide me with a job, any job. Out here the minimum wage is 7.25 and I’m okay with that. I’m looking for 2 jobs and I think about the fact that I’m going to be working 80+ Hours a week and what ill be able to bring in, it’s sad but I’m okay with that.

There is so much we have learned that it’s hard to put it into words. We feel so blessed to have learned so much. When we decided to move I said that we have become complacent in our life, we where very comfortable with everything. To be comfortable= not growing. We are not comfortable at all! So in know there is still more to be learned. Weather we like it or not.

So ill leave you with this…

“It takes no faith to trust God when He is obviously moving. Real faith is holding on & believing when God SEEMS absent” –Rick Warren